Finally, I Am Ready

iStock_000024954235_MediumLife can be tricky. Navigating whatever we must to survive.
We see things one way, when others see theirs.

As a grown woman with a sad childhood past,
I keep learning over and over again when
to trust others, and when to trust me.

And I have to admit: it’s not always easy,
squinting through the fog, and trying to
make sense of what’s in front of me.

But then I stop. I listen. Carefully.
To my center, to my soul,
to the nucleus of who and what I am.

Sure, we can talk all night and day about what’s right or wrong.

Or we can sit, and breathe, and feel what we already
know is best — for us.  And there it is, where it was all along,
and Christ, we knew it — though we did our damnedest to ignore it.

And finally, at five-plus decades into my life, I realize: I am ready.
Ready to follow my own knowing, steering here, not over there.

Yes, finally, I am ready.

Pure Heart, CJ

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“I was born in the goodness of grace
Because of faith, because of courage
Because of forgiveness
All my mistakes have become masterpieces.”
–Teitur, All My Mistakes” 

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4 comments…
  • Elena Eulo June 24, 2015, 2:11 pm

    What a wonderful topic. Life navigation. I have been the Mistress of Mistakes. I had a grim pride in surviving them, then more than surviving them, understanding and growing on them, that has done me very well. I realize that mistakes, if faced up to with understanding, can become stepping stones toward wisdom. Mine have led me through deserts and rapids and forests of thorns. Yet, here I stand humbled, with very little to recommend me as far as accomplishments go. Yet, I am a survivor who has learned love and respect (and gained my own). Now I stand at a new crossroads. Though I know I cannot be human and not make mistakes, I make another choice to step more firmly, to use my knowledge to stay found and not lost, to chart my maps more carefully, to accomplish what I can and no longer define myself just from my mistakes but also from my accomplishments. And look … here comes a new day.

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    • CJ Schepers June 30, 2015, 4:36 am

      Wow. I want to read your reply as its own damn blog, Elena! And “Mistress of Mistakes” — that one made me smile! Pure Heart, CJ

      Reply
  • Deborah Brooks June 29, 2015, 9:32 pm

    Lovely! An ode to all women. I too, am finding the coutage and the fortitude to listen to and follow my own voice as I age. Thank you for expressing the struggle with such poetic fervor.

    Reply
    • CJ Schepers June 30, 2015, 4:34 am

      We help each other remember, Deb. And you’re a walking, talking (skating) inspiration!

      Reply

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